If you are following anything related to The Secret or the Law of Attraction, you have probably heard the mantra of “be specific about what you want.” When it comes to attracting money in particular, the experts tell you to get very specific, to meditate “I want fifty million dollars by December 2014.”
This is great if numbers make sense to you on a subconscious level. But what if they do not? What if in saying out a number, you actually block your meditation from moving from your conscious, intellectual self to your subconscious emotional self where the Law of Attraction actually does its work?
On this blog and across the internet, I am very open about both my violent upbringing and about the consequences of the traumatic brain injury I suffered in November 1985 when a right turning automobile struck me in the left temple as I was crossing the street on my way home from school.
Besides the sight loss and the chronic migraines suffered ever since, the most prominent residual from that TBI remains my dis-connection with numbers in the arithmetic sense. Show me a regular value in a ledger, a bank statement, etc. and my brain does not connect to it. Shift that from a regular numeral value to a spatial value — a gram of weight, a unit of time, a temperature, a quantity of milk or fabric or other everyday object and I understand just fine. Or thought of another way, I can still and rather expertly relate to concentrate numbers specifying an amount of something I can see, feel, hear, experience with my senses. But when it comes to straight numbers, especially applied to something even more abstract — like money — and neither my intellectual mind nor my emotional subconscious understands.
If something does not exist to your subconscious mind, you simply cannot manifest it through the Law of Attraction. You cannot feel yourself already in possession of that which does not exist to you.
And this is the problem with a lot of the goals we try to set for ourselves, where fear and doubt easily creep in. What we are asking for only exists to our intellect; it doesn’t exist to our hearts.
This summer when I tried using Napoleon Hill’s meditation telling me to specify the amount of money I want, when I want to receive it, what I will give up to receive it, and the plan to obtain it my meditation became, “£50 million is mine and shall be in my account before 31st December 2014. Everyday I am marketing and selling my books and shall give up my time in order to sell so many books that I earn £50 million.”
What I realize today is there is not one, but two flaws in the meditation. First, as I outlined already, I have no emotional connection or concept of what £50 million is. My mind, let alone my heart, doesn’t really understand the concept of money. I understand tangible things bought with money, but not the money itself. I do not connect to money; only to what it buys. Second, the pathway specified is upstream to me. I actually HATE marketing. I hate begging people to buy my books. And I especially hate the current financial pressure I am under — wondering if I am about to go bankrupt because there is not enough money in my checking account to cover September’s credit card payment (quite literally).
If you have followed anything from Abraham Hicks, you know that negative emotions take you AWAY from what you want. Forcing yourself to do anything is paddling upstream. It is the opposite of allowing. It’s conflict, drama, worry, strife, all the things you must abolish from your life in order to attain what you want and need in life.
So after stressing and wrestling overnight, after enough tears of “oh my god my life is over” (no really it is not!) and so forth, it occurred to me that the problem was this meditation itself. So I re-wrote it to this:
“ALL THE MONEY I NEED TO IMMIGRATE AND ESTABLISH MY NEW LIFE AND NEW CAREERS IN MY NEW HOUSE NEAR LONDON IS MINE AND SHALL BE IN MY ACCOUNT BEFORE 31ST DECEMBER 2014.
EVERYDAY I SHALL CREATE SOMETHING NEW AND TELL THE WORLD ABOUT HOW GREAT MY WORK IS.
BY DECEMBER I SHALL FILE MY IMMIGRATION PAPERS AND LEAVE JOHNSTOWN
FOR NYC AND FOR HOME IN ENGLAND.”
Let me tell you, the vibrational difference in this is HUGE — even though the core is exactly the same. How? First, it reassures me that everything is okay — because it is — taking that upstream pressure off me. Second, it focuses on the CORE VALUES motivating me. Money, being too abstract to me, does not have much independent meaning for me. But where I live, the politics around me, the way people talk around me, my interactions with my landlord, the quality of my everyday life, now THESE ARE CONCRETE TO ME. Third, I can easily see myself in possession of all of this.
I can see myself in a lovely house in the south of England (and yes, I have a good idea how much such a house costs) with my modest flower and vegetable garden sanctuary. I can see myself hosting small dinner parties attended by friends and colleagues. I can smell the English rain. I can see myself taking the train into London to see a play. I can hear Rolling Stones Now as I attend one of their concerts in person, cheering on Richard Mann as “Mick” during the concert. And I can see myself walking in these fantastic historical places I have so far only explored in books, making history much more real for me. Oh the pleasure I shall feel the first time I walk in London and can finally understand these places are REAL. There are a thousand places in England I want to explore. I can feel the light from the eyes of my British-born friends as they watch me discover what each of them have always taken for granted. It will be this amazing experience across the board, my enthusiasm touching everyone around me as I finally find myself at home.
THIS IS WHAT IS REAL TO ME. THIS IS WHAT I CAN SEE/FEEL MYSELF IN POSSESSION OF. It’s not the £50 million I concretely want — though yes, I know that buying my dream house is expensive, so is just legal immigration and moving to England in the first place, something I cannot do until my credit cards and my education are paid off. But the money is the means to the end. That is all it is to me, not the end unto itself. Money frees me to leave the United States. Money convinces London to grant my application for permanent residency. Money buys my home and everything in it. Money brings my most cherished possessions across the ocean and hires those skilled at filing the paperwork to bring my precious cockatiels out of the United States and into the United Kingdom (this costs about £2000 to £4000 for those unaware). Yes, the financial needs to achieve what I really want are quite high. This is not cheap. The Law of Attraction knows this and is abundantly providing all of it to me.
But first I must allow it to be. First I must put my emotions where all of this is achieved. I cannot feel the money. But I can feel my house. I can feel my home office. I can hear the parties. I can see myself relaxing in my garden, a pen/paper in hand to write out ideas that come to me. And I can feel that famous English rain.
I know it will be.